3.35am One of those I'll delete on the following day kinda blogs

Dear Duck-billed-platypus *-*
I try to silence my head and let my heart speak. Not listening to your head might get you in trouble but not listening to your heart can burn more. People with laughing eyes are rare. A lot of eyes can speak but only very few say something and yours are deffinatly the ones which speak without you having to move your lips. They don't smile, they laugh and looking one second into them makes the world spin a million times faster, making me feel all dizzy with joy. I try to dive for the pearl and there are moments where I have to break off as I'm running out of oxygen and sometimes I'm close to suffocating but I keep trying to reach the bottom of the ocean. I fight sharks and I see pretty exotic fish on my way.
A sandgrain once got caught in a shell and over millions and millions of years, it has turned into a pretty pearl. A lot of people go for the sandgrains or pebbles around the shell because their easier to get and more common and some of them dive for the pearls. What if you know theres a shell but don't have any diving equipment? Would you risk diving in or would you wait until you get the diving uniform? How do you know though, that the shell with the pearl will still be there when you have your oxygen flask? Yet to me diving in seems the only way to reach you and to be close to you, even if I suffocate on my way.
Love Anna

Refriendtionship 7.22am (haven't slept)

Dear Platypus,

In a lot of cases, we fall in love with people who won't love us back. We make headstands so that those people pay more attention to us and somewhere deep inside we all hope that everything is going to end well. There are moments where we feel like we have wings and moments where we feel like we're being shred by a million daggers and a single smile can heal all wounds for the next few years. What if, that person never smiles though or all of a sudden stops smiling? What if the person looks at you and drinks the blood from your wounds too feel his power over you? What if you tell a personal story, so that he confides in you because you do by telling him and he picks it as a target because he knows it's going to hurt you?

im gonna get some sleep and continue this later

love anna