Dear duck-billed-platypuss,
After watching a video by my friend Tobi, I want to ask you, what's the meaning of life? Well to begin with there's no mathematical formula for it, as we all see the world with different eyes and have varying goals and perceptions. To me the meaning of life is leaving golden footprints, some sort of a change, something that makes the world at least a tiny bit better for the people after us. It may sound pretencious but that's how I feel about it. It's not about money, work or material things; at least not to me. It's more about diving deep rather than staying on the surface. About feeling the texture, rather than seeing it. So is life more of a box of chocolates like hollywood portrays it or an onion. In Guenter Grass'es biographical book, the author compares his life to an onion, peeling layer of skin after layer after layer making his eyes burn and then feeling relief in the end.
Often people realize when they're close to death, what life really means to them, often it's because they begin to actually think about it. It's often extreme situations which make us value and appreciate what we have. Many people live into the day, the wake up, go to work, school etc
just live in monotony.
I don't feel like continuing maybe some other time
I'm hungry
I'm off
love
anna
Samstag, 12. Juli 2008
Montag, 7. Juli 2008
Yes it's me again
hi d-b-p,
i'm turning this place into a sentimental soap opera but you're still stuck in my head and I keep thinking about you
xx
anna
i'm turning this place into a sentimental soap opera but you're still stuck in my head and I keep thinking about you
xx
anna
You said we shouldn't talk...
Dear duck-billed-platypuss,
You said we shouldn't talk for a month, it would be better for both of us but it's hard as I miss you so much. The seconds left seem like centuries and I spoke to you last on the 26th I think, which means that only 8 days passed. It's 10.41am and I can't sleep. Something tells me you're still drinking like before and maybe even more but you're afraid and you run from people who reach their hands out and those who point it out to you. You know you have a problem but you don't care. You have such an amazing personality, you're deep and caring and very romantic. I've never felt the same way about anyone, in real life. I get to know a lot of people; maybe I'm falling for you because you're far and I'm afraid of closeness and getting hurt again. Other guys keep hitting on me but honestly, I don't care and smiling to them seems like I'm cheating on myself. Deep inside, I still think about you.
Please drink one bottle less, for me today. Just one bottle ok? Please.
You probably won't but who knows.
I just spoke to my friend Tihara and her canadian bf Nick and I feel a bit better now. It's 12am, the time I should be sitting over books and studying but I'm taking a nap.
I'll talk to you soon
night
love anna
You said we shouldn't talk for a month, it would be better for both of us but it's hard as I miss you so much. The seconds left seem like centuries and I spoke to you last on the 26th I think, which means that only 8 days passed. It's 10.41am and I can't sleep. Something tells me you're still drinking like before and maybe even more but you're afraid and you run from people who reach their hands out and those who point it out to you. You know you have a problem but you don't care. You have such an amazing personality, you're deep and caring and very romantic. I've never felt the same way about anyone, in real life. I get to know a lot of people; maybe I'm falling for you because you're far and I'm afraid of closeness and getting hurt again. Other guys keep hitting on me but honestly, I don't care and smiling to them seems like I'm cheating on myself. Deep inside, I still think about you.
Please drink one bottle less, for me today. Just one bottle ok? Please.
You probably won't but who knows.
I just spoke to my friend Tihara and her canadian bf Nick and I feel a bit better now. It's 12am, the time I should be sitting over books and studying but I'm taking a nap.
I'll talk to you soon
night
love anna
Samstag, 5. Juli 2008
The bottle of sorrow
Dear Duck-billed-platypuss,
How have you been? I'm sorry I haven't written to you for such a long time and saying I was busy is not an excuse because I actually had time to. These days I've been feeling like dancing 24/7 but at the same I've experienced moments of sadness every time I've thought of you. Am I in love? I don't know as I've never met you, I might have a clearer vision if I did. All I know is that I really care about you and that I wish I could see you for real and maybe hold your hand, so you wouldn't drown yourself in firey liquid. I got really drunk to feel the same way you feel every day, you said it was childish to act in that manner. Who's the childish one among us? I couldn't eat or sleep for days worrying over you and you continue to go to bed every day with a blurred vision. I'm worried to death about you, I wish I could do something; you see you have the problem but don't care because the pleasure you're getting at the moment is stronger. You use excuses, you're a musician and the best music is inspired by sorrow you say but you never pick up your instrument (and how much more music is inspired by positive things like love?) You go to work, come home and drink bottle after bottle after bottle. Escape in creativity, it's healthier. You say, you have lots of friends around you; friends I have very few but I know that they wouldn't watch if I were in the same place (not to mention my family).
If we were in a relationship and truly loved you I'd probably drink as much and if you'd kill, you'd kill us both but if you cared about us you'd stop. Yeah I'm extreme like that, which might be scary. Be a bit more selfish anna, u might say. The world is full of people who only care about themselves. Maybe it's bad to be on the other extreme, maybe it's stupid to care about people who will always go on hurting you, by hurting themselves but I can't help it.
Damn it, I'm stupid, I keep falling for the wrong people my mind and my heart each lead their own lifes.
I think I'll go on loving you for ever and ever,
and deep inside I'll always hope that someday you open your eyes and lead a happier life and start taking more care of yourself. A life, where you open up more to the people around you and talk to them about your problems. The basis of the problem is not the alkohol, the drink is just a tool. You're afraid of reality and the pains it brings.
Where you an "outcast" in your childhood with no friends etc at school?
Anna
How have you been? I'm sorry I haven't written to you for such a long time and saying I was busy is not an excuse because I actually had time to. These days I've been feeling like dancing 24/7 but at the same I've experienced moments of sadness every time I've thought of you. Am I in love? I don't know as I've never met you, I might have a clearer vision if I did. All I know is that I really care about you and that I wish I could see you for real and maybe hold your hand, so you wouldn't drown yourself in firey liquid. I got really drunk to feel the same way you feel every day, you said it was childish to act in that manner. Who's the childish one among us? I couldn't eat or sleep for days worrying over you and you continue to go to bed every day with a blurred vision. I'm worried to death about you, I wish I could do something; you see you have the problem but don't care because the pleasure you're getting at the moment is stronger. You use excuses, you're a musician and the best music is inspired by sorrow you say but you never pick up your instrument (and how much more music is inspired by positive things like love?) You go to work, come home and drink bottle after bottle after bottle. Escape in creativity, it's healthier. You say, you have lots of friends around you; friends I have very few but I know that they wouldn't watch if I were in the same place (not to mention my family).
If we were in a relationship and truly loved you I'd probably drink as much and if you'd kill, you'd kill us both but if you cared about us you'd stop. Yeah I'm extreme like that, which might be scary. Be a bit more selfish anna, u might say. The world is full of people who only care about themselves. Maybe it's bad to be on the other extreme, maybe it's stupid to care about people who will always go on hurting you, by hurting themselves but I can't help it.
Damn it, I'm stupid, I keep falling for the wrong people my mind and my heart each lead their own lifes.
I think I'll go on loving you for ever and ever,
and deep inside I'll always hope that someday you open your eyes and lead a happier life and start taking more care of yourself. A life, where you open up more to the people around you and talk to them about your problems. The basis of the problem is not the alkohol, the drink is just a tool. You're afraid of reality and the pains it brings.
Where you an "outcast" in your childhood with no friends etc at school?
Anna
Montag, 31. März 2008
Blogspot Experiment: (A) Smell
Dear duck-billed-platypus,
Breathe in and tell me what the air is like near your lake...
Can any perfume or showgel top the smell of fresh morning air right after it has rained or the scent of yasmine when it tickles you and makes your lung smile? The smells of cherry-blossom-spring accompanied by a whole orchestra of rainbow colored birds, of rose petals, of basil or lemmon grass leaves, of strawberry fields, of pizza? Wait or should I say Smareni Kureci
Jizek z Hranolkami (czech for chicken steak with fries)? Prague, oh where should I begin... When my brother was around 5 or 6 they used to have these "horrible histories" books at kindergarten and school; you could smell the different epoches like the medival times or the Renessaince. Well, trust me after 10 years of Prague, those books were nothing.
Breathe in and tell me what the air is like near your lake...
Can any perfume or showgel top the smell of fresh morning air right after it has rained or the scent of yasmine when it tickles you and makes your lung smile? The smells of cherry-blossom-spring accompanied by a whole orchestra of rainbow colored birds, of rose petals, of basil or lemmon grass leaves, of strawberry fields, of pizza? Wait or should I say Smareni Kureci
Jizek z Hranolkami (czech for chicken steak with fries)? Prague, oh where should I begin... When my brother was around 5 or 6 they used to have these "horrible histories" books at kindergarten and school; you could smell the different epoches like the medival times or the Renessaince. Well, trust me after 10 years of Prague, those books were nothing. Prague Public transport during summer makes me wonder if people know that deodorants have been invented (and showers too btw). Hold your nose because I'm going to tell you one of the stinkiest stories; even the smell of rotten fish and cheese is nothing compared to what I smelled.
One morning, my brother and I were travelling to school and we entered a very crowded tram; people pushing from all dirrections made me feel like an old car getting squashed to a metalic square. There was an empty seat; we had to ride for 50 minutes so an empty seat was perfect and kind of out of place. I didn't feel like sitting so my brother sat down. Something smelled really weird. All of a sudden I noticed my brother jumping up. The tram doors closed. We were all trapped. I noticed that the people were opening windows everywhere. There was a beer-dead shabby looking man sleeping in a puddle of piss and he smelled like he hadn't showered his entire lifetime. He was drooling. People where trying to move away but there was nowhere to move to. We had to suffer through it as of course the traffic lights went red and the tram stood still. We pushed ourselves to the front of the tram but the smell was just everywhere. Let me draw it for you:
seats--free seat (not so FREE at all)----mr.stink (not to be confused with mr sting) -- door-------
anna+michael+people+people+more people
I never smelled anything this bad. It made ME want to take a shower. It's sad people let themselves go so much; maybe something tragic happened in his life, which resulted in his addiction to alkohol, maybe not. How can people like that be helped? Ok. This was a person in an extreme situation but how about your average czech person, if you don't know what I mean take the public transport (it's the fastest way to get around but also the smelliest). I'd like to award a special award to Prague as the city with the biggest: SPC (smelly per capita). I was talking to this german girl at school who had just arrived and she told me about how every time she smelled the "pleasant odeur" in the metro, she sprayed arround madly with her spray deo so everyone thought she was mad. Got any interesting stories about smells? Wether positive or negative, let me know about them, I'd be really curious.
To me smelling good is a plus. If you don't smell like perfume, smell at least clean!!!
Here are some of the products I use or liked (can you smell me)?
Favorite Showergel
-DKNY Energizing (Woman)
-pretty much anything that smells like roses or honey and milk (by Palmolive)
-Cindy Crawford Summer Days
Favorite Shampoo
-ok if I judge by the smell it was this japanese shampoo+conditioner (can't remember the name) that came in really pretty pink bottles with little silvery flowers all over. It smelled very natural. A whole rose garden came out of it when I opened it but it made my hair all fizzy and it did something really odd to my hair, when I used the dryer at the swimming pool it had made my hair so weird that it knotted up sooo badly that I had to cut some of it.
-Right now I'm using Head and Shoulders Lime (don't know if it's my favorite though, it fullfills it's intention)
Favorite Soapsmell
-Mango or Coconut by Oriflame
-Milk and Honey's the best for soaps
Perfume
Oblique by Givenchy "play" is MY smell (-:P
Good Deodorant/Evil Deodorant
I wonder how many Axe responses I'll get on this one. You, yeah you! I bet you're using Axe if you're a guy. Am I being prejudiced? Luckily, you platypuses (platypies with tomato sauce) can't be influneced by one of the best deodorant advertizing campaigns. You probably smell like the grass you walk on and maybe the flowers around you. I don't use sprey deodorants because they have a negative effect on the ozon layer. I sometimes wish that more people acted that way because if the demand went down for them they would produce less or non at all. The roll on's are better anyway, they don't contain those chemical substances, which damage our environment and they're much better for your skin. Not to mention when a puffy cloud of the "greatest" smelling deodorant almost blinds you and makes you wish that your nostrills evaporated; or guys spraying male deodorant on girls so if P.E isn't your last subject, you'll smell like it for the rest of the day. Please do me a favor will you? If you usually buy spray deodorants, buy an alternative one next time. You might think, "oh what effect can this one bottle have?" As the chinese proverb goes, the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step and our enironment in these days of global warming does need every possible thing we can do, especially if it's this simple.
I wonder how many Axe responses I'll get on this one. You, yeah you! I bet you're using Axe if you're a guy. Am I being prejudiced? Luckily, you platypuses (platypies with tomato sauce) can't be influneced by one of the best deodorant advertizing campaigns. You probably smell like the grass you walk on and maybe the flowers around you. I don't use sprey deodorants because they have a negative effect on the ozon layer. I sometimes wish that more people acted that way because if the demand went down for them they would produce less or non at all. The roll on's are better anyway, they don't contain those chemical substances, which damage our environment and they're much better for your skin. Not to mention when a puffy cloud of the "greatest" smelling deodorant almost blinds you and makes you wish that your nostrills evaporated; or guys spraying male deodorant on girls so if P.E isn't your last subject, you'll smell like it for the rest of the day. Please do me a favor will you? If you usually buy spray deodorants, buy an alternative one next time. You might think, "oh what effect can this one bottle have?" As the chinese proverb goes, the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step and our enironment in these days of global warming does need every possible thing we can do, especially if it's this simple.
Mittwoch, 26. März 2008
The Big Blogspot Experiment INFO
Dear Duck-billed-platypus,
How have you been? I haven't gotten around to writing to you these days so now I'm glad I'm finally managing to.
Partly out of curiousity to see if it works and partly to get many youtubers involved in my next video series, I've decided to start an experiment. I'm going to make 3 blog entries in the categories: (A) smell (B) taste (C) sight. From the 1.4.-10.4. people can comment on those entries preferably answering some of the questions posed in the text and they can take polls related to the entries.
My aim is to get 1000 comments overall in the three categories and to select some of the entries for the videos. If they aren't signed up on here, they should make sure they include their youtube user names. So yeah, that's the concept. What do you think about it? I soo hope it works. I can't wait to start working on it and look forward to what everyone will have to say.
I'll catch you later
Anna
How have you been? I haven't gotten around to writing to you these days so now I'm glad I'm finally managing to.
Partly out of curiousity to see if it works and partly to get many youtubers involved in my next video series, I've decided to start an experiment. I'm going to make 3 blog entries in the categories: (A) smell (B) taste (C) sight. From the 1.4.-10.4. people can comment on those entries preferably answering some of the questions posed in the text and they can take polls related to the entries.
My aim is to get 1000 comments overall in the three categories and to select some of the entries for the videos. If they aren't signed up on here, they should make sure they include their youtube user names. So yeah, that's the concept. What do you think about it? I soo hope it works. I can't wait to start working on it and look forward to what everyone will have to say.
I'll catch you later
Anna
Mittwoch, 19. März 2008
3.35am One of those I'll delete on the following day kinda blogs
Dear Duck-billed-platypus *-*
I try to silence my head and let my heart speak. Not listening to your head might get you in trouble but not listening to your heart can burn more. People with laughing eyes are rare. A lot of eyes can speak but only very few say something and yours are deffinatly the ones which speak without you having to move your lips. They don't smile, they laugh and looking one second into them makes the world spin a million times faster, making me feel all dizzy with joy. I try to dive for the pearl and there are moments where I have to break off as I'm running out of oxygen and sometimes I'm close to suffocating but I keep trying to reach the bottom of the ocean. I fight sharks and I see pretty exotic fish on my way.
A sandgrain once got caught in a shell and over millions and millions of years, it has turned into a pretty pearl. A lot of people go for the sandgrains or pebbles around the shell because their easier to get and more common and some of them dive for the pearls. What if you know theres a shell but don't have any diving equipment? Would you risk diving in or would you wait until you get the diving uniform? How do you know though, that the shell with the pearl will still be there when you have your oxygen flask? Yet to me diving in seems the only way to reach you and to be close to you, even if I suffocate on my way.
Love Anna
I try to silence my head and let my heart speak. Not listening to your head might get you in trouble but not listening to your heart can burn more. People with laughing eyes are rare. A lot of eyes can speak but only very few say something and yours are deffinatly the ones which speak without you having to move your lips. They don't smile, they laugh and looking one second into them makes the world spin a million times faster, making me feel all dizzy with joy. I try to dive for the pearl and there are moments where I have to break off as I'm running out of oxygen and sometimes I'm close to suffocating but I keep trying to reach the bottom of the ocean. I fight sharks and I see pretty exotic fish on my way.
A sandgrain once got caught in a shell and over millions and millions of years, it has turned into a pretty pearl. A lot of people go for the sandgrains or pebbles around the shell because their easier to get and more common and some of them dive for the pearls. What if you know theres a shell but don't have any diving equipment? Would you risk diving in or would you wait until you get the diving uniform? How do you know though, that the shell with the pearl will still be there when you have your oxygen flask? Yet to me diving in seems the only way to reach you and to be close to you, even if I suffocate on my way.
Love Anna
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